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Thank God you took me back when I was again at that state of pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization and still treated me with kindness and respect and nursed me back to health physically and gave me hope psychologically and the strength to try again. I am still sober. I'm taking care of myself, my home, a friend's dog who probably won't be back for quite a while dealing with his own consequences. I am also an Uber driver now and loving it. Tonight I am making two homemade lasagna pans, one for me and one for my neighbor which I haven't done in years. I have a sponsor. I am getting back to feeling good about myself and putting into practice what I have learned over the years when sober. It works....it really does, if you try. I'm not perfect nor will I ever be, I'm not always happy. I get angry then I try to pause when agitated, ask for that right thought or action, maybe change my perspective or remember things I've done in the past or present, whenever I point one finger three are pointing right back at me. I need to focus not so much as what needs to be changed in the world or the people around me as what I needs changed with my attitude and/or perspective. I need to remember my serenity is inversely proportional to my expectations. I need to pray for the willingness to stop resenting those who wronged me remembering they are spiritually sick just as I am when I am using or not trying to seek and be willing to do God's will as I can be sick sober too. Looking for that person, place, or thing to make me feel complete hasn't worked. It is my self-seeking, it is my self will run riot. That or ruminating on the past or worrying too much about the future has, and if I allow it, run me right back to the bottle and worse. So yes I need to use page 86 and look at the 24 hours ahead asking that it especially be divorced from self-pity, dishonest, or self-seeking motives. I need to read Reflections and Just for Today. I need to have daily meetings to keep me on track, course corrections, attitude adjustments, or just reminding me how easy it is for me to slip. And most importantly, I don't feel so alone. Hopefully someone gets something from this if they read it this far. Take care!